Guilt is a swarthy monster. Often hidden from your view, yet its effects are insidious and not to be taken lightly. When you only hear God’s voice, there is no fear, doubt or guilt. You do not have reasons for them, as you only experience certainty. If you hear the ego voice, you have only fear, doubt and guilt which cause other effects such as anger, hatred and isolation. During the transition from ego to spirit, there are varying levels of the love/fear ratio experienced as attention is given to one or the other. Let me throw in a note of wisdom: The journey from ego to spirit is not always a one-way journey. What you call “backsliding” is common, even daily or from minute to minute. The lessons given cause confusion to the point that you don’t know which to trust – ego or spirit. At the halfway point, you somehow want to go back completely, but find that you are not able to. Having come this far, you will never again be able to not seek peace. You can’t go back to the point where you only heard the ego voice. You are a changed creature and your experiences reflect it. You are torn between two alters and cannot be completely at either. You are in the world, but not fully of it. You have gone too far to turn back now, even as the ego screams loudly that you have led yourself astray.