You still don’t have the capacity to control your thoughts or behavior. You are still very reactionary. You let others control you, as you see them more important. Are they? Or are they just as you are? You must regain your focus and love yourself. You are important also. Don’t discount yourself to the point that you are resentful of others. Spend more time contemplating your happiness and the direction of your life. Think about what it is that will truly make you happy. Don’t be selfish – be equal. Don’t value the opinions of others more than your own. Just as too much pride is not good, low self esteem is equally not good. You must establish the balance that your life needs.